{"id":2140,"date":"2015-07-02T13:33:18","date_gmt":"2015-07-02T20:33:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.oliverk.org\/weblog\/?p=2140"},"modified":"2015-07-23T22:38:08","modified_gmt":"2015-07-24T05:38:08","slug":"becoming-turtle-becoming-animal-becoming-human","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/?p=2140","title":{"rendered":"becoming turtle becoming animal becoming human"},"content":{"rendered":"<div id=\"attachment_2145\" style=\"width: 610px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3592.jpg\" class=\"thickbox\" rel=\"grupo2140\" ><img decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-2145\" class=\"wp-image-2145\" src=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3592-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"a life companion\" width=\"600\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3592-1024x768.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3592-300x225.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3592-700x525.jpg 700w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-2145\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">a life companion<\/p><\/div>\n<p class=\"p1\">To be, just for a moment, in the mind of another is a worthy ambition\u00a0\u2013\u00a0all the more so if the <i>being<\/i> whose head you want to get inside is a non-human being.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">As I type these words, my box turtle Marmaduke is staring up at me from the floor beneath my desk. Having lived with him for than 48 years, I know this particular expression means <em>something<\/em>: very likely that he has noticed his\u00a0dinner bowl is empty or that the\u00a0leftover food therein has dried out. In his own reptilian way, he is telling me <em>that this will not<\/em> <i>do!<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">After\u00a0the very many years of our\u00a0relationship,\u00a0I have\u00a0learned to\u00a0recognize that look.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">But what would it be like to <em>be<\/em> him? To look out at the world through those\u00a0baleful, red eyes? To truly experience it all\u00a0from his point of view, without the baggage of anthropomorphism so drilled into us through too many\u00a0childhood Disney films?<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">I am not, nor ever will I be &#8211; a turtle, though\u00a0I would very much like to understand something of a turtle&#8217;s\u00a0subjectivity.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">The bio-semiotician <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Jakob_von_Uexk%C3%BCll\" target=\"_blank\">Jakob von Uexk\u00fcl<\/a>l made great strides in such imaginings, laying out a detailed framework on how we might perceive the perceptual\u00a0worlds of the animal other.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">He begins his (1934) <em>\u2018A Stroll Through the Worlds of Animals and Man\u2019<\/em> with an entreaty to participate in a thought experiment,\u00a0to imagine ourselves\u00a0wandering through a flower-strewn meadow, blowing:<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\"><i>\u00a0a soap bubble around each creature to represent its own world, filled with it perceptions that it alone knows. When we ourselves then step into one of these bubbles, the familiar meadow is transformed. Many of its colourful features disappear, others no longer belong together but appear in new relationships. A new world comes into being. Through the bubble we see the world as it appears to the animals themselves, not as it appears to us. This we call the phenomenal world or the self world of the animal.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">Von Uexk\u00fcll goes on to visualize\u00a0what the world might look like from the point of view of a host of\u00a0creatures \u2013 ticks, sea urchins, jackdaws, flies, dogs, chickens\u00a0\u2013\u00a0each living\u00a0within its<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span><i>Umwelt;<\/i>\u00a0 the German\u00a0translating\u00a0literally as \u2018surrounding world\u2019, of a given subject, perceived and interacted with through its <em>own organs<\/em>. This\u00a0seminal text, a combination of astute scientific observation and self-described \u2018ramblings\u2019, influenced everyone from <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Gilles_Deleuze\" target=\"_blank\">Deleuze<\/a> \u00a0to contemporary UX designers. \u00a0In it, Von Uexk\u00fcll\u00a0 challenges\u00a0us\u00a0to reconsider the universe from the non-human point of view, which is after all something people have been obsessed with since our very beginnings.\u00a0Even in the\u00a0earliest cave paintings, we see a longing to inhabit,\u00a0to <em>become<\/em> the animal; at once the\u00a0object and the\u00a0subject of our desire; much more\u00a0than\u00a0simply an\u00a0aesthetic preoccupation. Depictions of\u00a0becomings animal, of interstitial states, of hybridity, have appeared throughout\u00a0human\u00a0culture, from the\u00a0falcon-headed Egyptian god Horus, to the Minotaur, to the shape-shifting \u00a0Japanese<a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Japanese_raccoon_dog\" target=\"_blank\"> tanuki<\/a>, to the vampires,\u00a0werewolves, the princes disguised as frogs, Batman, Spiderman &#8211; you name it!<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">We\u00a0wonder what it might be\u00a0like to be an eagle, soaring over mountain peaks, its\u00a0eyes far superior to ours, scanning the barren\u00a0wastelands for a\u00a0glimpse of the\u00a0scurrying marmot? Or to put ourselves just for\u00a0moment, inside the head of our trusted dog, for whom the air we breath\u00a0is redolent of convoluted odour narratives and invisible signifiers.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">The minds of our\u00a0pets are frequent objects of our narcissistic conjecture: What do they think of us? Do they <i>love<\/i> us? Do they <i>miss<\/i> us when we are away? and so on.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">Though we share our homes and lives with them, and have substantially altered\u00a0their genetics to suit our sense\u00a0of \u2018what an animal should be like\u2019, the power relationships between us\u00a0aren&#8217;t\u00a0completely one-sided, which\u00a0any pet owner can verify. Yes \u2013 pets\u00a0are objects, but they\u00a0are also\u00a0articulate subjects; compliant enough and yet\u00a0quite adept at getting what they want.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">And I\u2019m not just talking about belly rubs here. The hunting relationship that emerged\u00a0between early man and certain wolves, fundamentally changed the fortunes\u00a0of both and caused\u00a0far-reaching consequences\u00a0for entire ecosystems. There is considerable evidence that this\u00a0brutally efficient partnership pushed\u00a0our cousins the Neanderthals, who\u00a0were reliant on the same food supply,\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.theguardian.com\/science\/2015\/mar\/01\/hunting-with-wolves-humans-conquered-the-world-neanderthal-evolution\" target=\"_blank\">toward\u00a0extinction<\/a>, as well as wiping out such iconic\u00a0megafauna as\u00a0woolly rhinoceros, mammoths and giant bison. These big, dangerous beasts\u00a0could\u00a0be tracked down\u00a0and held at bay\u00a0by the <em>wolves-becoming-dogs<\/em>, until\u00a0<em>Homo sapiens<\/em>\u00a0could catch up with them,\u00a0wielding\u00a0spears and arrows lobbed\u00a0from a safe distance, reducing the risk of themselves being killed or injured\u00a0in the hunt. These early human-imprinted wolf lineages gradually morphed into the\u00a0manifold forms that are\u00a0the domestic dog today\u00a0\u2013 everything\u00a0from teacup Chihuahuas to French bulldogs to Great Danes; the beloved beneficiaries of canned food, over-priced veterinary care and doting human companions\u00a0who\u00a0reverentially follow them around wrapping their hot\u00a0faeces up in plastic bags.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">Amazingly, one of the key factors facilitating the success of our co-mingling\u00a0seems to have been the whites, the\u00a0<em>sclera<\/em> of our eyes; an unusual trait in animals shared by both man and dog, which enabled\u00a0us to quickly and noiselessly perceive\u00a0what the other was\u00a0looking at\u00a0\u2013\u00a0<em>\u2018I am seeing\u2013you are seeing me\u2013seeing\u2019<\/em> \u2013\u00a0an immense advantage in the fast-moving context of the\u00a0hunt.<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/embed.theguardian.com\/embed\/video\/film\/video\/2015\/feb\/05\/white-god-opening-scene-clip-video\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen=\"allowfullscreen\"><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p class=\"p1\">Our\u00a0relationship with dogs has stood the test of time, despite our frequent cruelty towards them;\u00a0the beatings, pitting them against each other in fights, sometimes even <a href=\"http:\/\/www.bbc.com\/news\/magazine-33283694\" target=\"_blank\">eating them<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p3\"><span class=\"s1\">So it\u00a0might seem as if dogs were\u00a0incapable of holding a grudge \u2013 but what if they finally had enough<\/span>? The recent Hungarian film <i><a href=\"http:\/\/www.theguardian.com\/film\/2015\/mar\/01\/white-god-observer-film-review-canine-carnage\" target=\"_blank\">\u2018White God,\u2019<\/a><\/i> imagines a scenario in which abused\u00a0dogs band together to take\u00a0over the streets of Budapest in a mass revolt against their human tormentors. What results is a cinematic love child\u00a0 of \u00a0<em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=FwLzSpS-JVY\" target=\"_blank\">&#8216;Lassie Come Home&#8217;<\/a> <\/em>and <em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=UNT6xyopdBs\" target=\"_blank\">\u2018Battleship Potemkin&#8217;<\/a><\/em>.\u00a0More than any film I&#8217;ve seen lately,\u00a0<i>\u2018White God,\u2019<\/i>\u00a0 portrays the world\u00a0f<i>rom the animals point of view.\u00a0<\/i>The schlocky 1971 &#8216;rat-sploitation&#8217; film, <em><a href=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/watch?v=u3Fndi62nGI\" target=\"_blank\">\u2018Willard\u2019<\/a><\/em> \u00a0broaches similar territory, (if I am not misremembering it too egregiously) but nowhere nearly as adroitly. In both films, \u00a0the human protagonists, while sympathetic, are basically just catalysts\u00a0for the unleashing of raw animal rage.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p3\">Yet dogs, revolutionary or otherwise, do share with us a mammalian physiology which\u00a0we can closely relate to.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p3\">But what of the\u00a0creatures\u00a0we choose to live with that are less like us? How might we imagine <i>their<\/i> Umwelt?<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><span class=\"s2\">Birds have long been popular pets and some of them,\u00a0notably parrots,\u00a0<\/span>can perform what to us seem like prodigious feats of intelligence. The famous African grey, <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Alex_(parrot)\" target=\"_blank\">Alex<\/a>, was not only conversant in English but used it in a way that showed a grasp of syntax and numbers. Though they don&#8217;t all use our vocabulary, other <a href=\"http:\/\/www.bbc.com\/news\/science-environment-33325854\" target=\"_blank\">birds like the Chestnut Babbler also use syntax <\/a>in their communications, using different word combinations\u00a0to convey different concepts: nest, food, sky etc. Though they use language,\u00a0birds are physiologically much more distant\u00a0from us than are dogs, having\u00a0much more in common with the therapod dinosaurs they descended from than with any of us upstart mammals.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">What must it be like to experience the world\u00a0through a super light weight,\u00a0hollow-boned body,\u00a0capable at any point of launching itself\u00a0into the air, every breath sucked in by\u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Bird#Respiratory_and_circulatory_systems\" target=\"_blank\">a hyper-efficient respiratory system<\/a> that can\u00a0power\u00a0marathon, trans-hemispheric flights\u00a0<i>through the vastness of the sky<\/i>, with minimal food or rest? And they\u00a0start their lives by\u00a0pecking their way out of a hard-shelled, externally incubated egg!<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Clearly, bird subjectivity is not our subjectivity and yet we may figure in their Umwelten, especially if we have established some kind of a relationship with them, as the people who keep them, the people who enjoy feeding\u00a0them in their yards, the people who obsessively watch them, recording their sightings\u00a0on lists.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Birds though, are usually most interested in\u00a0other birds, their predators and prey, as well as the complex topology of trajectories and territorial designations that signify their habitat.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Even that is somewhat of a generalization, for it is\u00a0what Von Uexk\u00fcll calls <i>receptor images <\/i>that turn out to be the\u00a0major drivers for bird\u00a0behaviour. He describes\u00a0certain jackdaw (a small crow-like bird) that would attack any\u00a0cat or human experimenter \u00a0carrying a dead jackdaw. When the\u00a0experimenter\u00a0showed up with\u00a0a limp pair of black bathing trunks in his hands, the jackdaw\u00a0similarly goes\u00a0on the offensive.\u00a0Yet it didn\u2019t bat an avian eye when a dead <em>white<\/em> jackdaw (presumably an albino) was paraded by it. It was the <i>blackness<\/i> combined with limpness that seemed to trigger this specific\u00a0bird\u00a0\u2013\u00a0not the <em>\u2018bird-ness\u2019<\/em> of what he was seeing.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">By cultivating a practice of not anthropomorphizing, but trying\u00a0instead to grasp\u00a0the semiotic universes in which animals\u00a0exist; what\u00a0<i>they<\/i>\u00a0think is important; we can develop a\u00a0much more nuanced appreciation\u00a0for\u00a0those\u00a0with whom we share the planet. Their worlds are not our worlds, but sometimes they overlap!<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Says Von Uexk\u00fcll:<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><i>We are easily deluded into assuming that the relationship between a foreign subject and the objects in his world exists on the same spatial and temporal plane as our own relations with the objects in our human world. This fallacy is fed by the belief in the existence of a single world, into which all living creatures are pigeon-holed. This gives rise to the widespread conviction that there is only one space and time for all living things\u2026<\/i><i>There is no space independent of subjects. If we cling to the fiction of an all-encompassing universal space, we do so only because this conventional fable facilitates mutual communication.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">So perceptions of time as well as space are key elements of a given Umwelt.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Looking\u00a0back down at\u00a0Marmaduke,\u00a0staring up at me from the floor\u00a0makes me wonder\u00a0how our relationships to time differ. There are for me, \u00a0the obvious physical markers.\u00a0In the nearly\u00a0five decades\u00a0we&#8217;ve lived together, I have progressed from boyhood to adulthood, to middle age, with all its attendant physical complications and catastrophes. For his part, Marmaduke seems\u00a0nearly\u00a0indistinguishable from his dapper, youthful self, save for a slight fading of his orange neck pigmentation and the\u00a0unfortunate cross-bite he acquired\u00a0after breaking his beak some years ago, when he fell\u00a0off a pile of books he was climbing.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Does time move slower for him &#8211; or faster?<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Again Von Uexk\u00fcll offers us insight, reminding us that time is the product of a subject:<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><i>Time as a succession of moments varies from one Umwelt to another according to the number of moments experienced by different subjects within the same span of time. A moment is the smallest indivisible time vessel, for it is the expression of an indivisible elementary sensation, the so called moment-sign\u2026<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><i>The question arises whether there are animals whose sense of perceptual time consists of shorter or longer moments than ours, and in whose Umwelt motor processes are consequently enacted more slowly or more quickly than in ours.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Which is fascinating&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">In his novel <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/The_Possibility_of_an_Island\" target=\"_blank\"><i>\u2018The Possibility of an Island,\u2019<\/i> <\/a>Michel Houllebecq imagines the bittersweet feelings of an immortal protagonist living in the near future, toward his little dog \u2018Fox\u2019, which is not \u2018a\u2019 little dog <em>per se<\/em>, but many little dogs, or rather a never-ending succession of the same dog \u2013 cloned: each replaced by its own puppy self as soon it has lived\u00a0out its normal, dog-appropriate life span.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">The variance in perceptual time between dog and master invokes some sombre reflection on the part of the post-human\u00a0Daniel, who otherwise experiences the ebbs and flows of the post apocalyptic world outside his gated compound with an almost geologic detachment. Years pass, and not much consequential happens,\u00a0except his dogs dying every once in a while to remind him of the chronology of the natural world.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p6\">But what if we turn the tables and imagine ourselves in the mind\u00a0of a creature that can outlive us?<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Spare a thought for example for that <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Bowhead_whale\" target=\"_blank\">bowhead whale killed off the coast of Alaska in 2007<\/a>. \u00a0It had a harpoon tip lodged in its neck blubber dating back to\u00a0the 1890\u2019s. This venerable but\u00a0unfortunate leviathan, possibly over 150 years old, spent more than a century dodging a repeat encounter with our murderous species, out-lasting the end of the commercial whaling industry, only to wind up dead in\u00a0a relictual\u00a0aboriginal hunt. Had it\u00a0become world-weary, plying the plastic-strewn, anthropogenically warmed polar sea and thinking:<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><em>\u2018To hell with it! I\u2019m exhausted\u2026 Maybe I\u2019ll just end it all and offer myself up to these Inuit. They seem like nice people\u2026\u2019 <\/em><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Or maybe\u00a0it just got unlucky.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Then there are the tortoises\u00a0\u2013\u00a0venerable, patient as boulders&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/?title=Tu%27i_Malila\" target=\"_blank\">Tu\u2019Malila<\/a>, a Madagascar radiated tortoise lived\u00a0with successive generations\u00a0of the Tongan royal family from 1779 until 1965, after having been brought there by\u00a0the peripatetic Captain Cook. <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Jonathan_(tortoise)\" target=\"_blank\">Jonathan<\/a>, a giant Seychelles tortoise is still alive\u00a0at 182 years, exiled like Napoleon, to the distant south Atlantic island of St. Helena. What do\u00a0these ancients think\u00a0of us as they observe,\u00a0through rheumy reptilian eyes, our frenetic comings and goings? We must seem like crazed, bipedal ants, \u00a0our over-clocked, distractible brains constantly driving\u00a0us to keep\u00a0<em>doing<\/em>\u00a0things,\u00a0while they blink and wheeze and munch placidly on soft weeds, noticing perhaps the shift in the\u00a0angle of the sun as the season progresses\u00a0or the promise\u00a0of rain in\u00a0the great vault of weather boiling high\u00a0overhead.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Compared to these Methuselahs, Marmaduke is but a spring chicken yet\u00a0I can\u2019t help wondering how, over our past half century of cohabitation, he thinks about the time passing\u00a0\u2013\u00a0or if in fact he even thinks about\u00a0it! His routine has been\u00a0remarkably constant: he enjoys basking in the patch\u00a0of sun that conjures itself up beneath the office skylight at a certain hour in the morning. He\u00a0tucks into his miniature portion\u00a0of organic dog food and lettuce leaves with apparent\u00a0gusto, if\u00a0the ambient temperature is high\u00a0enough. There are also his\u00a0long soaks\u00a0in his\u00a0water dish to relieve constipation. <em>That<\/em>\u00a0might be fun!<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">But mostly he just sleeps in one of his several favourite hiding places under\u00a0my bookshelves. When the house cools down in the winter, these naps can go on\u00a0for weeks. Being able to remain inactive for long periods\u00a0confers tangible benefits\u00a0to turtles, helping them avoid predators, endure\u00a0inclement weather\u00a0and interruptions to\u00a0the food supply. Perhaps these super naps have cognitive benefits\u00a0too\u00a0\u2013 a pause from too much stimulation, a time to process all they have taken in. Perhaps they meditate\u00a0Who knows? Perhaps these naps\u00a0are the way\u00a0box turtles mark time&#8230;<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Though\u00a0his sense of time\u00a0is\u00a0opaque to me, I can see\u00a0that the locations of objects within his operational space seem to matter a great deal. Marmaduke\u00a0promptly investigates the appearances and disappearances of my knapsack on the floor or any new pile of books or magazines that get put there. Maybe this is evidence of some sort of spatial prioritization, an\u00a0Umwelt consisting\u00a0primarily of\u00a0assemblages of obstacles\u00a0and hiding places he must negotiate in order to move about efficiently and unobtrusively.\u00a0Time may have no meaning\u00a0in such a world, other than the cycles of light and darkness by which objects are illuminated.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">As a narcissistic human, I am particularly curious\u00a0if after all these years\u00a0Marmaduke has developed any emotional attachment toward me. I&#8217;m resigned to the fact that it&#8217;s\u00a0not likely I&#8217;ll\u00a0ever find out. Affection, in the way we humans might understand it, is not something reptiles tend to exhibit, despite this turtle&#8217;s\u00a0entreating use\u00a0of eye contact\u00a0when wants to be fed.\u00a0There is no way of telling\u00a0what\u00a0my face\u00a0even means in his\u00a0reptilian Umwelt, merely that he has learned that if he stares at it\u00a0long enough, I will eventually notice him and take care of his needs.\u00a0In\u00a0the Venn diagram of our lives, these moments of turtle-initiated communication are where we most overlap.\u00a0At least it&#8217;s something&#8230;<\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_2143\" style=\"width: 610px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3596.jpg\" class=\"thickbox\" rel=\"grupo2140\" ><img decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-2143\" class=\" wp-image-2143\" src=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3596-1024x768.jpg\" alt=\"Cousteau in a pensive moment\" width=\"600\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3596-1024x768.jpg 1024w, http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3596-300x225.jpg 300w, http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/IMG_3596-700x525.jpg 700w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 1024px) 100vw, 1024px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-2143\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Cousteau in a pensive moment<\/p><\/div>\n<p class=\"p5\">In contrast to their slow-pokey terrestrial cousins, water turtles can seem quick-witted and engaging.\u00a0Of the freshwater species, the softshell turtles and the similar pig-nosed turtles are the most thoroughly aquatic, gliding\u00a0through\u00a0their watery realm with an almost balletic grace.\u00a0<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0<\/span>Though I\u2019ve only admired pig-nosed turtles with my face pressed up against the glass of the Berlin Aquarium, I have been living with a pair of soft-shelled turtles, since 1997, having raised them from tiny hatchlings.<\/p>\n<div id=\"attachment_2175\" style=\"width: 650px\" class=\"wp-caption aligncenter\"><a href=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pig-nosed.jpg\" class=\"thickbox\" rel=\"grupo2140\" ><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" aria-describedby=\"caption-attachment-2175\" class=\"wp-image-2175 size-full\" src=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pig-nosed.jpg\" alt=\"Pig-nosed turtle at Berlin Aquarium\" width=\"640\" height=\"480\" srcset=\"http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pig-nosed.jpg 640w, http:\/\/www.oliverk.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/pig-nosed-300x225.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 640px) 100vw, 640px\" \/><\/a><p id=\"caption-attachment-2175\" class=\"wp-caption-text\">Pig-nosed turtle at Berlin Aquarium<\/p><\/div>\n<p class=\"p5\">To say these creatures are odd is a supreme understatement. Their flexible shells are the texture of wet baseball gloves and they have curious, tube-like snouts, which they employ like snorkels. Temperamentally, softshells\u00a0are highly idiosyncratic and thus require a fair amount of sensitivity and attention on the part of their keeper, which makes them, it needs to be said, <em>terrible pets<\/em>, for anyone not willing to devote massive amounts of time to understanding their subtle emotional cues, let alone their physical needs\u00a0for\u00a0commodious aquaria with fastidiously filtered, expensively heated water and a carefully chosen substrate in which\u00a0they will bury themselves for hours at a time,\u00a0switching over\u00a0to anal breathing so they don&#8217;t have to come up\u00a0for air.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Cousteau, a female and by far the larger of the two, is a <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Florida_softshell_turtle\" target=\"_blank\">Florida softshell <em>(Apalonia ferox)<\/em><\/a> and neurotic in the extreme. The last time I weighed her, she came in at over 16 pounds and that was some years ago, so the two hundred gallon plexiglass tank of swamp water she inhabits no longer seems as excessive as it once did. Though she could easily amputate a finger with a snap of her wire cutter like\u00a0jaws, Cousteau is painfully shy and goes into deep conniptions at the slightest departure from her accustomed routine: an unexpected noise, perhaps\u00a0the clunk\u00a0of a drinking glass on the coffee table, someone entering or leaving the room too\u00a0abruptly, or even a play of light on the wall she may suddenly find disturbing. Thus agitated, she will bolt to the far corner of her tank with the back of her shell\u00a0facing\u00a0the room to\u00a0sulk for possibly days before deigning to engage in\u00a0the world\u00a0again. \u00a0She is similarly particular\u00a0around her meal times, preferring\u00a0her food pellets to be offered<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>late at night, after midnight ideally, once\u00a0the overhead lights are dimmed,\u00a0\u00a0the television tuned to BBC World News at an appropriately modest volume. And yes, I realize this is weird!<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">I came to discover these predilections through an arduous process of trial and error. On a couple of occasions, Cousteau put herself\u00a0on a multi-month hunger strike when the conditions of her confinement were not quite to her liking, coming\u00a0dangerously close to starving herself. Extreme, suicidal behaviour perhaps, but how else could she get my attention? Despite my having obsessively pored over all the literature\u00a0I could get my hands on pertaining to\u00a0softshell turtle biology, Cousteau was not just <em>any<\/em> softshell turtle, but an <i>individual<\/i>, steeped in her own enigmatic subjectivity. I had\u00a0to put myself inside her Umwelt, to see things from her point of view \u2013 from the watery vantage point of her\u00a0big\u00a0aquarium in the corner of the\u00a0living room.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Okay, I didn\u2019t exactly climb into the tank with her, but started observing\u00a0much more closely how she reacted to slight shifts in her living conditions &#8211; one variable at a time: the temperature of her water, at what time I was offering her food, the lighting,\u00a0the ambient level of noise, the sonorousness and timbre of the way I spoke to\u00a0her, and so on\u00a0\u2013 <em>until she slowly<\/em><i>\u00a0emerged from her deep funk. <\/i>I live with a very large\u00a0softshell turtle who prefers\u00a0to eat late at night, with the television\u00a0on and\u00a0I need to talk softly to\u00a0her while droppoing\u00a0herring flavoured pellets in front of her tube-like nose. And I\u2019m okay with that.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i>You know what it is to be born alone,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Baby tortoise!<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>The first day to heave your feet little by little<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>from the shell,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Not yet awake,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>And remain lapsed on earth,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Not quite alive.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>A tiny, fragile, half-animate bean.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>To open your tiny beak-mouth, that looks as if<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>it would never open,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Like some iron door;<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>To lift the upper hawk-beak from the lower base<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>And reach your skinny little neck<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>And take your first bite at some dim bit of<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>herbage,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Alone, small insect,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Tiny bright-eye,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Slow one.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>To take your first solitary bite<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>And move on your slow, solitary hunt.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Your bright, dark little eye,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Your eye of a dark disturbed night,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Under its slow lid, tiny baby tortoise,<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>So indomitable.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p7\"><i>DH Lawrence: Becoming tortoise.<\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">\u2018Baby\u2019, a male spiny softshell turtle, inhabits a slightly smaller tank adjacent to the dining room. He is the polar opposite of Cousteau in almost all respects and the closest thing I have ever seen to a \u2019social\u2019 reptile; constantly solicitous of human attention &#8211; a regular <em>life-of-the-party<\/em>, especially if people are gathered around the dinner table. If he isn\u2019t asleep or hidden under the gravel breathing through his anus, Baby spends his time furiously gesticulating towards the nearest human, his webbed feet performing a kind of frantic semaphore, neck fully extended : <em>Feed me! Feed me! Notice me! Notice me!<\/em>\u00a0in the hopes he\u2019ll be tossed a food stick or just hung out with, which he very much seems to enjoy. But why? Obviously he likes being fed, but there seems to be more to it; a kind of intrinsic exuberance that Baby has always had even as a hatchling, no bigger than a quarter. Both Cousteau and Baby came into my life at around about the same time; tiny turtlets only days old; a so-called \u2018by-catch\u2019 in a shipment of farm-raised tropical fish. Neither would have experienced much beyond the cosseted interior\u00a0of the eggs they had so recently slipped out of,\u00a0maybe bobbing\u00a0haplessly around in the fish pond for a few days\u00a0before being scooped up,\u00a0 stuffed into an oxygen injected plastic bag\u00a0and shipped\u00a0to an\u00a0airport. Yet right from the beginning, Cousteau and Baby were utterly different in the way they related to their respective worlds. Far from being\u00a0\u2018simple\u2019 creatures they are \u2013as we\u00a0all are\u00a0\u2013 individuals.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">But must we live isolated within our unbridgeable solitudes?<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Is our access to animal subjectivity such an existential impossibility or limited to the realm of arcane thought experiment? Perhaps they can really\u00a0enter our minds and we theirs? Maybe\u00a0the boundaries between our Umwelten are more permeable, our\u00a0<em>becoming-animal<\/em> within reach; dangling like the fibres Deleuze and Guattari envisioned in <em><a href=\"http:\/\/projectlamar.com\/media\/A-Thousand-Plateaus.pdf\" target=\"_blank\">A Thousand Plateaus<\/a><\/em>, as already connecting us in an enmeshed co-presence.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Perhaps it is a matter of<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>memory. Maybe if we try to remember our animal dreams; the ones that remind us of what it is like to <i>be<\/i> them, we might be able to <i>become<\/i> them, at least once in a while.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">The philosopher <a href=\"http:\/\/www.e-flux.com\/journal\/deja-vu-and-the-end-of-history\/\" target=\"_blank\">Paulo Virno declares dej\u00e0 vu a memory of the present<\/a>. How often have we looked at an animal and felt a deep connection, an overwhelming\u00a0co-presence in which we briefly <i>are:\u00a0<\/i>that cat purring, nestled by the warm hearth, the puppy gambolling in the soft spring grass, the butterfly unfurling its wings, the giant tortoise stoically observing the passage of the centuries through teary, brown eyes, now pausing to nip the petals off a flower?<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Animals. We are them. They are us. That is why we like to hang out with them. That is why we should love them even more.<\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\"><i>Like a titmouse, which a breeze gently rocks at the end of a sunbeam. <\/i><\/p>\n<p class=\"p5\">Proust: Remembrance of Things Past<\/p>\n<p class=\"p6\"><span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 \u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>To be, just for a moment, in the mind of another is a worthy ambition\u00a0\u2013\u00a0all the more so if the being whose head you want to get inside is a non-human being. As I type these words, my box turtle Marmaduke is staring up at me from the floor beneath my desk. 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